: : speechless : :

Last week I went to my childhood friend’s wedding. Both my friend and her younger brother were married on the similar day. Their parents are actually my parents’ colleague back in Leeds. The wedding went off smoothly, and the foods served were just nice. After we (mak and I) had our lunch, we went to see the bride and congratulate her. At the age of 27 she becomes a wife to her husband, by matched marriage. We went to see her mother as well, and let her know that we decided to go back. However, something not-so-nice happened! The mother asked me..

“So, when’s yours? Buat lah doa banyak-banyak….” She sounded so mean during that time
What does she mean by that?

My negative P.O.V

- Ko dah tua tu…x sedar² lg ke?? Well, at least I’m still 24 years old. Your daughter got married at the age of 27. So, what’s the big deal?
- Buat doa banyak-banyak sbb ko x laku…mintak dipertemukan jodoh secepat mungkin.. *sigh*

My positive P.O.V

- “So, when’s yours? Buat lah doa banyak-banyak….” maybe this is just an unintentional conversation, without realizing she’s into the sensitive issue.
- Just to remind me, so that I keep on praying to Allah, dipertemukan dgn jodoh yg sesuai, direstui, soleh ..and etc.

I accept her question positively .

Asking people “when are you going to get married” is really S.E.N.S.I.T.I.V.E and S.I.L.L.Y. Of coz every people in this world wants to get married. Who doesn’t? It's a matter of time, money, preparations, and commitments ..well I guessed more that I’ve listed.When the girl is approaching 30s.. Please don’t ask them this kind of question. You might or might not hurt them. For me, I hate to hear this, and I won’t ask people when they are going to get married…at least I’m 24, how about if I’ve already 28, and still being single? Please be considerate, we are just human being, yupps we tend to do mistakes, but THINK before you ask.

: : 13th April 2009 : :

Happy 3rd Anniversary !!

Fast forward, we've been flying for three years . . .

&

Happy 24th Birthday to my beloved friend, Sall.

: : Get up and stand still, Alya : :

I feel so empty these lately, inside and outside. I don't know what am i doing 'here'. Sometimes i feel that i don't belong to this place. The place that taught me the meaning of life & being independent 5 years back. Again, i'm really empty inside and outside. I've been gifted with so much opportunities where there were few people are dying to have one as well or, to be me. I thanked Allah for all the rezeki that he has given to me. I'm happy yet I am still sad. Day and night I've been reciting the Quran and prays to Allah for giving me strength to stand by my own feet, for giving me companion so that i won't feel lonely, for giving me guidance & knowledge and the most important thing, being His khaleefah & adhering to all His regulations.

I felt down everytime i try to get up and stand still. In fact, i crawled everytime i try to run.

No one would help me, except for myself! I'm not sure whether i've already chosen the right path, or the other way around. I tried to make my parents pround of me and trying harder for the sake of seeing them happy. I'm dreaming of being a good daughter to my parents, securing a great position as an academician with all the qualifications required. I've already had my Degree, and now i'm juggling between works and Masters. *sigh*

To be frank, i H.A.T.E. doing my Masters here. If i quit, i'm a looser but if i keep on continue with it i'm in so much pain & miserable. I am being positive and that's the reason why i'm still here, trying harder to get up and stand still.

p/s: I'm looking forward for the IELTS exams.

: : works and more works and more² WORKS! : :

Sigh....

Today, all day long i feel soooo sleepy. I'm quite occupied with my schedule.. though there's no more tutorial classes to conduct, since the students are now having their Final Semester Exam up till early April i guess. I've to invigilate few subjects. The first one will be on the 25th of March (Power Distribution Engineering) and the following subject will be on the 30th of March (Circuit 1).

Lamanyeee tak update blog. without realizing March has almost came to the end. huhu. There were a lot of things happened in the month of March. I tried to find at least some spaces to squeeze for posting some entries about those events, tp as usual the mood of blogging / writing is still not there. And i ended up to exit from the screen and browsing through other ppl's blog. hihi...

well we starts with the begining of March.

On the 28th of February, i went to Uniten Muadzam to accompany CE-ME Contingent for Kejohanan Sukan Mahasiswa (KSM). That was the first time i wnt tu Muadzam. We travelled at 4am in the morning and reached there at 8am (Luckily Anas wasn't asleep yet because none of us know the direction to Muadzam. All the way i kept on calling him for the directions) I was sooo sleepy but i know i've to be the co-pilot for Shuhairy since he's the driver. Najib was there as well and Hajar, one of the Contingent. Muadzam is just a small town, nothing interesting there. And i'm sure students in Muadzam can get full concentration towards their studies since they don't really get influence by any entertainments. Unlike Uniten Bangi.. surrounded by shopping complex, cinemas, located nearby the centre of KL and etc². Poor them, anyhow to me the more reasons for the students to score! :D. CE-ME Contingent won some of the games during the phase 1. Congrats guys!

Two weeks later which was on the 13th of March i had to go to Kem NADI, Sungkai for the Internalizing Core Values Program. I was representing Civil Department for the programme and been into the Intergrity Group. The program took about 3 days. The entire of the program i was having an exciting moment. I met new friends and it was a great oppurtinity for me to know some of Uniten Staffs from each department. Finance, HR, Marketing, IKAL, ITMS, COE, COIT, PPH, Keselamatan, and etc².

On the 22nd of March we had or KUSESS mini gathering when a friend of mine got married to another of a friend of mine!. heheh. almost 10 years of relationships and they finally tied the knot. Congratulations to Boon & Aween. Both were my classmates back in KUSESS. Hope their marriage last forever, may Allah bless u with kids & grant you with happiness living as husband & wife.. InsyaAllah.
I met almost all of my friends.. especially my besties!! Sall, Atoi, Pypy, Ain (dear, last time we met when we both sitting for our SPM, is it??), Wanie, and our far away friend~ Cik Yam!. I met few of my colleagues back in 5 Permata as well, Nadhilah, Kutimonku! & A'an.. how i missed u guys sooo very much!!
The wedding was held at one of the hall at UM, we reached there at 11.30am (guess what, we were among the first!), and we went back at almost 3.30pm, after the photo session. Just after the wedding, we went straight to Alamanda for having our "WE Time!!" - Karaoke. I really had my most enjoyable time with my friends just after we left KUSESS. We recalled lots of memories & histories .. come to think about it, how i hate KUSESS so much during my schooling time, and it ended up to be one of the best present in my life!

p/s: Pics will be uploading sooooonnnnn

: : Solat 5 waktu! : :

As a reminder to me and my fellow friends....

Orang Yang Tidak Melakukan Solat:

Subuh : Dijauhkan cahaya muka yang bersinar..

Zohor : Tidak diberikan berkat dalam rezekinya. .

Asar : Dijauhkan dari kesihatan/kekuatan..

Maghrib : Tidak diberi santunan oleh anak-anaknya .

Isya' : Dijauhkan kedamaian dalam tidurnya..

: : Malcolm In The Middle : :

My military life started when i was in my secondary school. "KUSESS" to be shortformed or Kuala Selangor Science Secondary School to be exact. Being 5 years in that school i have to sacrifice my real life. Meaning no more TV for me... *sigh*. When people asked u, "What is your favorite TV series?" my answer would be " Malcolm!!! " without any hesitation. Yupps, Malcolm In The Middle, evergreen and everlasting in my heart :D.

Unfortunately, due to my commitment as a student (being in boarding school) i don't have the chance to follow this series. I could managed to watch it during school holidays. Somehow, i tend to forget about it (as i make full use of home, going out here&there and etc). Just after my school life has ended, there was another big commitment ahead of me. Being an undergraduate at UNITEN meaning another 5 years of sacrification again! Though i've the chance to watch TV during that time, anyhow my sense of guiltiness were killing me. No, i'm not a geek but i did study hard to achieve what i want. :D

10 years i've been waiting & looking forward for this tv series, surprisingly, i managed to get all the series starting from the first season till the last season. Yeayy! A bunch of thanks to a friend of mine who managed to collect these series. Come to think abt it, i don't know when exactly i'm going to watch the series. I'm quite occupied with my work load.

Hmmmmm.....

:-?

: : S.E.M.A.N.G.A.T : :

Something happened, which really makes me happy today.

Gotta work extra hard in order for me to be "papa's" daughter.

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It has been a long time since i last updated my blog.

*sigh*, i have tonnes of work need to be done. Marking test papers, classes need to be conducted, report, function to attend, settling with my claims, what else? hmmm... and of course progressing my master work! Alhamdulillah, as for now i'm progressing well though a bit delayed than usual. I just have to work really extra hard and pray to Allah, mintak dipermudahkan segala urusan ku di dunia ini, dan juga di akhirat kelak.

Enough talking about work......

My officemate has just came back after a long break (due to an operation). I never seen her before, until last week. She's really nice and help me a lot with my new job. So far, we can cope well, understand each other, we shared stories, and easy to communicate with.

Alhamdulillah, i'm more than happy now, and it makes me more S.E.M.A.N.G.A.T to manage myself and handling my commitments.

: : Nestle? Israel's Product? : :

Nestle is a multinational packaged food company founded and headquarted in Vevey, Switzerland.

it makes me ponder...apa yg barang org yahudi nye?? hmmmmm~
can anybody explains for me???

p/s: one of the Nestle's owner happens to be nenek's old friend..

: : Colgate VS Starbuck : :

The conversation was taken yesterday, while both resting in front of the tv

Adam : Alya, ko pakai ubat gigi apa?
Me: Colgate .. why??
Adam : Tau tak, harge colgate 7 ringgit...ko sebenarnye dah sumbangkan 7 peluru to Israel utk tembak org islam???
Me : ????*&^%$#@

and today.....
adam called me, when i was in jusco...

Adam: Alya, tolong belikan STARBUCK..
Me : heyy harge starbuck 16 ringgit!! nak sumbangkan 16 peluru utk tembak org islam ker??

Adam : takpe, teringin....yang ni special case...

i refused to buy starbuck for my lil brother...
and it makes me think, what should i buy for him..to replace starbuck ice blended...

hmmm...
otw back, we stopped at petronas..
i rushed to the petronas shop and grabbed a can of nescafe, by NESTLE..i couldnt think of anything during that time,as long as it is not starbuck..

when i reached home Adam was a bit frusterated when i gave him a can of nescafe but he did enjoy the nescafe..after a while,i talked to myself, goshhhh!! nestle pun one of the Jew's Product. :(
. . . . . and i've just donated a bullet to Israel as well :(

: : Mommy, I'm home!! : :

Mommy, I'm home!! finally.....

5 days being in Uniten feels like putting myself inside the bird cage. *sigh* I need a bigger space to breath! My current room(uniten) is very super-duper small, compact, and full of my stuffs. huh!
Therefore, I have to appreciate my holiday, meaning, appreciate my astro, and my spacious room. Now i can breath easily.. (^-^)

Alhamdulillah :)

: : The Symbol : :

Picture shown above is actually a normal riverstone. Well, what makes it so special? It's because when u placed it at the RIGHT angle, it will give u a PERFECT heart shape!

Was given by fiq few months ago after his camp at Kuala Kubu.

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Condolence to fiq & family for the lost of their beloved father on the 11th of January 2008.

"may Allah bless arwah's soul & put him among those you promised heaven."

Appreciate your family while they are still alive. They are actually the true COLOURS, HEART and SYMBOL of your life.

: : Is that a SIGN?? : :

I'm in an early of 23 years old. Just celebrated my 23rd birthday last October, which falls on 2nd Hari Raya. Well this year i'm going to be 24!

The question here is, " Is 23 yrs old is a sign for u, that u're old??? "

Urrrghh!

I just realized it after my Zohor prayer. There was a white hair falling down my head.

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Had a conversation with mak last Tuesday, and one of the topic pop-out from her was "Alya jangan banyak pikir...nanti belum tua lagi rambut dah penuh uban..."

I believe in mother instinct. What she said was just right.

: : Unhappy Mode : :

My whole week was fullfilled with tears!

Well, i'm facing a painful time, each day for the entire of this week. Hope the same thing won't happen tomorrow. I want to refresh and rejuvenate myself. *Oh lovely Friday*

I thought the beginning of 2009 will cheer up my life. With new position in Uniten, new resolutions and new aims. Well it is just a vice versa. Been tortured by my supervisor, Dr. B. for not giving him productive results. *Sigh*. The best way is keeping your mouth shut. No point of quarreling with him as u ended up revealing your weakness. Every single word that he said, i'll take it as a challenge in order to improvise myself in the future. I've to be strong for this.

He, once told me "The most healthiest way to conduct research is when one day, u cannot sleep thinking about ur project". At first, i couldnt understand what does he mean. Somehow, after few months (or perhaps a year++) working with him, i learn a lot what life could tastes when u were up and down.

Welcome to the world of challenge Aliyyah!

Proof to yourself that u can handle all the circumstances. U have your parents to support u, and ur other half to give u strength. What's more could you ask for??

: : Reminiscence of 2008 : :

Alhamdulillah, i can just smile when thinking about what happened in 2008. One of my very best year in life. I'm finally graduated with a degree in civil engineering, after 5 years of my sacrifications being a geek. Besides, i've been awarded for "The best final year project 2008" a day before my convocation. Alhamdulillah again, all the hard works were really means a lot to me. Just after i've completed my degree, as promised by my parents they sent me off for my Europe Tour. It's kind like a "present" for giving them good results.I went there with my beloved granny. We went to 5 European countries.London, Amsterdam, Belgium, Paris, and lastly, Switzerland. I enjoyed it so much!. I promised to myself, one day if i've enough money i will keep on continuing my tour. Hope that i can tour all around the world. InsyaAllah.

After resting at home for 3 months, i straight away registered for my Master. Master degree in Civil Engineering as well. My aim is to get everything completed by 2009. Hopefully~. I started my first carrier as Research Assistant to Dr Bashar. There were lots of the ups and downs i faced throughout the journey of being a Research Assistant. The best part is, my dream comes true when the first time i went to Cameron Highland, my dream place!!The place was very nice, cooling and refreshing.

After 6 months working as an RA, i've been offered for Tutor post in Uniten. I will start working as a Tutor next week, 5th January. This is the best gift for me as the end of year 2008. As for the beginning of 2009, i'll pray may Allah bless my future undertaking, and let go through everything easily, thus i can graduate my master degree on time. Amin. . .

: : Lunch at Eastin Hotel : :

Today, the whole family were invited to Eastin Hotel to have our lunch there. (My 2nd bro blanje :P). The food there were superb! Couldn't manage to snap pics sbb busy makan. huuu ada western, chinese, japanese, and of coz malaysian's cuisine. Puas lah makan for a RM50 per head. Dessert dia pun..varieties. Next time if i've extra money blh lah pg lg..hihi

Went back home, suma org collapsed sbb terlampau kenyangg *sigh*

gotta settle lotsa things ...photocopy ic,birth certificate,transcript, hmmm then cuci gamba. ohhh and kna cuci gamba europe aritu as requested by granny :D

+++ kna edit my resignation letter draft .. huhuhu

: : Goodbye 2008 and Say Hello to 2009. A new beginning : :

Alhamdullilah for the past few weeks, i managed to face the ups and downs of life.
Lots of thing happened which i couldnt manage to list everything. Ive been very busy with my research and my master proposal defence (presentation). And again, alhamdulillah, everythings went off very well.
After the proposal defense, i felt like there's no more huge bomb waiting to explode inside my head. hihih... the next day i had a nice and pleasure weekends. Slept till 11 am which i've always waiting for since i started working.

Oh...another good news, i've received my offer letter last week. Tutor post at UNITEN. alhamdulillah. I have to start working on the 5th of Jan 2009. Well, gotta be more serious with my work and hope that i can manage my time wisely, so that i can balance between my tutor work an my master work. huhuhu.. as for now, i can just proceed with my statics tutorial class and my master work.

Talking abt my master works, glad that my reservoir sediments had just arrived.Well, they're fresh from the cameron highland!! Thanks to Jor Power Plant (Cameron) for arranging the transportation for me. I don't have to travel from kl-cameron-kl anymore. yeayyy!

Hmmmmm my plan for these 5 days break; i'm planning to do medical checkup tomorrow. huhuhu kna x-ray lagi. and thinking of going to pavillion or OU to buy my formal work attire. tgk lah macammana.. Once i'm at home meaning that i've to forget abt my work and research. I really need this longg yet short break.

Selamat Rehat Alya!!!

p/s: am blogging using my lil pink baby.....

SALAM AIDIL ADHA FRM ALYA & FAMILY

Wish all Muslims "Salam Aidil Adha"

Gonna be quite busy for this week. Have a report to be submitted and final sem presentation. Hope everythings going on well.

:D

Killer Monday

Reached my office at 8. Then i received an email from Mr Sivakumar for the vacancy for statics tutorial classes. At first, i planned to take Reinforced Concrete Design as my teaching load. Then after thinking of the pros and cons, i've decided to change to Steel Design. But still, i'm still thinking of the pros and cons of taking it. Oh no...head cracking just becoz of these two subjects. Then when i came to my office...fuhh~ all the questions been answered already. Mr Sivakumar asked me to see him regarding the tutorial matter. I think, i'm gonna stick to this decision. Finally.~. There are four sections for statics and each section carries one hour tutorial per week. The schedules are ok..at least there's no gap in between one to another, not like my previous semester. hoho statics...need to revise again start from scratch. I believe, i've the strong basic towards it, just that i need to re-polish it. Just hope for the best this semester. :)

Around 11, i received a call from Marketing Dept, Uniten..telling me that i need to join the photoshot for Uniten advertisement.Oh nooo!! i've a strong instict that i won't be selected for that. huh! However, it's the other way around. huh!!. I don't think i'm photogenic enough to join this photoshot. huhu...Glad najwa was there as well...at least i wont feel bored wasting time. heh~The photoshot went ok..i'm representing postgrad student. Well, if i've been selected (due to my so-called-natural beauty-looks) they will straight away inform me. just wait and see.. :)
After lunch, i went to lab for some testings. (compressive strength test). The results for the testings were negative. my blocks didnt have any strength at all. sigh~.. i have to do so some research in order to find out the roots of all this trouble.aaaaaaaaaaaaa tensinye!!

:(

think that's all...kna balik study....and buat lit rview as well...and study the behavior of lime, FA and etc.
aja² fighting!

New features

p/s: Need to change my blog background,layout and some of the features. Any ideas?? i found one blog sharing lotsa nice background.
http://www.thecutestblogontheblock.com/background.php?id=273
Tapi, instruction dia cam pening nak follow. Or is it me, yg sangat slow nak paham instruction? especially when it comes to computer coding & instructions. Haih!!

:(

NEED HELP!!

What a weekend~

It's already 1 in the morning and my eyes are still widely open. :( sigh~ i think it's because of the nescafe effect. Just came back to uniten. The journey was ok..ayyub used an alternative highway(jalan tun razak) in order to avoid MRRII, meaning - terrible traffic jam. The entire journey, adam kept on asking "Ehh...kite pegi UNITEN or nak jalan² kl ni??" heh~ poor little boy...
I reached uniten around 9, then straight away to carrefour to collect fiq's computer desk, which has been reserved earlier. Last time the price stated was RM59.90, now, the price increaced by RM25!. huhu mahalnyeeee...

I had a nice weekend..
Went to klcc on saturday, heard that the year-end sale has just started, and for Isetan member card holder it'd be extra 10% for each item. I planned to grab a new purse for myself, since my old purse macam nak terberanak day. huuuuuuu..tapi, masyaAllah....queue dia terlampau panjang!! and definitely i won't buy that purse just because of extra 10% reduction and i have to kill my feet. nopps!. well, i believe in " kalo ada rezeki x kemana". Then i went to parkson, to buy fiq's shirt. It's a present from me, sempena the new semester begin. :). Before we went home, i bought for amad V for vendetta and Dark Knight novels. We went back home at 4pm..x lah crowded sgt kat lrt...so-so only ..yang penting dpt duduk. haha...
Mak and abah came back from japan after magrib. Actually it supposed to be after isya' then suddenly i received a message from mak " we're on our way to klang gate.." huh...x readykan makanan pun...just nasik goreng cooked by me coz anas planned to go to pasar mlm after magrib. huuu...
They didn't buy anything from japan(maybe bcoz, baru jek spent a lot kat bandung), just 2 kain for me, to make baju kurung. really nice! i like it..hehehe..

The next day (sunday), i just did some house keeping, clean up the kitchen and settled the laundry. Thought of going back early..then mak told me that she's already arranged the program. Ayyub will be sending me after magrib. ..

I think, that's all about my weekend. Nothing interesting but i do appreciate it. Now i know, when u're working, u will looking forward for weekends..and when the new week come, u will suffer from "monday syndrome". hehehe.. Lots of thing need to be done tomorrow. ..i've to stay in the lab for some tests. sigh :(..
wake up alya!!

till fingers meet my keyboard again..