: : *&^%$#@ pening *&^%$#@ : :

Arini pening....

pening pikir masalah dunia... -_-"

haihh~ rasa macam dah susahkan semua orang... i'm sorryyyyyyy semua orang :'(

bila buat calculation, i have to have approximately RM150k just to continue my studies abroad!!

Tu baru tuition fees, belum lg accomodation, makan..minum...buku², duit public transport? kat UK tube dia mahal ~

Well, i'm not the only child in my family...

I have another 3 younger brothers who are still need money for their studies..or perhaps DEMAND for money???. huuuuu~

Being the only daughter is not easy. Your parents tend to be extremely-protective!

* X boleh keluar malam sorang²..bahaya... nanti takut ada org ikut~ (ayat my mum since i was little, sampai sekarang..)

* X boleh bawak kereta kat highway... bahaya jugak....

* X boleh pg outstation jauh²... unless uniten provide kan bus..huhu

* X boleh tu...tak boleh ni....

Yet, i'm so grateful to have them. I am who i am now..

hmmmm....

sambung pikir......

Time ni rasa macam best jek... sbb x pikir langsung masalah!! Missed the old good times with my friends. *sigh*

: : Da Lane Et Memoria : :

While i'm browsing through the Uniten Intranet to find some stuff for CE Monthly Report.. suddenly i found a folder written "Convocation 2008"

I quickly clicked the folder and it contains all of the pictures during my convocation. Tersentuhnyee bila ingat balik zaman convo! Ada lah few of my pictures terselit kat situ.. hehehe
My sacrification for 5 years (including the foundation year) just for a scroll of Degree. For that, i thanked Allah for providing me a great patience towards it. Alhamdulillah ~

Shuhairy, Siti Aliyyah, Steven & Syafriyal. We were among the 'S' people.

Class of 2004-2008

: : Kuala Kangsar : :

Just came back from my 3-days holiday at Kuala Kangsar, to visit my younger brothers, Adam and Amad who are studying in MCKK.

I'm sooo tired. Will update about it later ~

p/s: my dad and anas will be coming back from Rome real soon. Wonder how anas had his own sweet times in Rome for a week! I wish i could join them :'(

: : speechless : :

Last week I went to my childhood friend’s wedding. Both my friend and her younger brother were married on the similar day. Their parents are actually my parents’ colleague back in Leeds. The wedding went off smoothly, and the foods served were just nice. After we (mak and I) had our lunch, we went to see the bride and congratulate her. At the age of 27 she becomes a wife to her husband, by matched marriage. We went to see her mother as well, and let her know that we decided to go back. However, something not-so-nice happened! The mother asked me..

“So, when’s yours? Buat lah doa banyak-banyak….” She sounded so mean during that time
What does she mean by that?

My negative P.O.V

- Ko dah tua tu…x sedar² lg ke?? Well, at least I’m still 24 years old. Your daughter got married at the age of 27. So, what’s the big deal?
- Buat doa banyak-banyak sbb ko x laku…mintak dipertemukan jodoh secepat mungkin.. *sigh*

My positive P.O.V

- “So, when’s yours? Buat lah doa banyak-banyak….” maybe this is just an unintentional conversation, without realizing she’s into the sensitive issue.
- Just to remind me, so that I keep on praying to Allah, dipertemukan dgn jodoh yg sesuai, direstui, soleh ..and etc.

I accept her question positively .

Asking people “when are you going to get married” is really S.E.N.S.I.T.I.V.E and S.I.L.L.Y. Of coz every people in this world wants to get married. Who doesn’t? It's a matter of time, money, preparations, and commitments ..well I guessed more that I’ve listed.When the girl is approaching 30s.. Please don’t ask them this kind of question. You might or might not hurt them. For me, I hate to hear this, and I won’t ask people when they are going to get married…at least I’m 24, how about if I’ve already 28, and still being single? Please be considerate, we are just human being, yupps we tend to do mistakes, but THINK before you ask.

: : 13th April 2009 : :

Happy 3rd Anniversary !!

Fast forward, we've been flying for three years . . .

&

Happy 24th Birthday to my beloved friend, Sall.

: : Get up and stand still, Alya : :

I feel so empty these lately, inside and outside. I don't know what am i doing 'here'. Sometimes i feel that i don't belong to this place. The place that taught me the meaning of life & being independent 5 years back. Again, i'm really empty inside and outside. I've been gifted with so much opportunities where there were few people are dying to have one as well or, to be me. I thanked Allah for all the rezeki that he has given to me. I'm happy yet I am still sad. Day and night I've been reciting the Quran and prays to Allah for giving me strength to stand by my own feet, for giving me companion so that i won't feel lonely, for giving me guidance & knowledge and the most important thing, being His khaleefah & adhering to all His regulations.

I felt down everytime i try to get up and stand still. In fact, i crawled everytime i try to run.

No one would help me, except for myself! I'm not sure whether i've already chosen the right path, or the other way around. I tried to make my parents pround of me and trying harder for the sake of seeing them happy. I'm dreaming of being a good daughter to my parents, securing a great position as an academician with all the qualifications required. I've already had my Degree, and now i'm juggling between works and Masters. *sigh*

To be frank, i H.A.T.E. doing my Masters here. If i quit, i'm a looser but if i keep on continue with it i'm in so much pain & miserable. I am being positive and that's the reason why i'm still here, trying harder to get up and stand still.

p/s: I'm looking forward for the IELTS exams.